No, that’s not the sound of an engine attempting to turn over. It’s the sound of my head repeatedly smacking my desk. I suspect most writers have a similar sound, and the causes are numerous. For me, lately, it’s been a struggle with the Notenoughhoursintheday syndrome, combined with a healthy dose of WhichwaydoIturn, and an occasional sprinkle of WhythehellamIdoingthisanyway. That last bit is like a leaking nostril, you know the kind: Can’t blow it out, can’t sniff it in, yet it runs constantly to the point you’re forced to walk around with half a Kleenex shoved up the offending orifice just to keep it contained.
Now don’t get me wrong, this isn’t a Pity Party. I don’t have those. I normally don’t attend them either, unless I’m wearing my pointy-toed boots. My dad always told me to wear those particular boots if I intend on handing out arse kickings, which is generally the dish I bring to pass at Pity Parties.
I’m not even shopping for a cure because I know the only cures are within myself or in development. But, dang it! and Grrrrrr! just when I think I have a plan forged in iron . . . *whump*
- BD&L2 is rolling along like an ancient cart with wooden wheels on a rutted track. But it is rolling. I’d forgotten how hard it is to deal with a First Draft when you suffer from chronic Rewriteritis. I thought I’d caged the internal editor and found my “Don’t look back even if you know it’s tripe” blinders. Then yesterday’s session word count on the handy Scrivener tool that shows that gem, tallied my total as -789. Yes, that’s a negative number. I unwrote more words than I wrote. Does the term FIRST DRAFT mean nothing to you, Schwengel? It’s not that I obsess over word count. But I do like to eek out 1k a day. Going nearly 1k the other way . . . *whump*
- Now that I finished the dreaded synopsis, BD&L1 is back to making the agent rounds, and I’m looking at small presses as an option for it as well. I’ve been wavering on doing something about its word count (roughly 75k) because the Guidelines for just about all fantasy are 80-120k But it’s done, leave it alone. Is it really? Even some of the small presses specify they won’t look at it if it’s under 80k. Am I obsessing? Possibly, BUT
- As I get further into BD&L2 I’m feeling very strongly about going back and reworking bits of BD&L1. *whumpwhumpwhumpitywhumpwhump* Why? <cue primordial scream> WHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYY??!!!!??? Um . . . because things are developing. Because there are nuances I may have missed. Because . . . *whump* Is this normal when writing a series or am I just in need of a white hug-me jacket?