All This Waiting

I try to be patient. I really do. But sometimes, waiting for A Thing, feels a bit like this:

And then there’s all of this:

while hoping the message indicator on my phone shows I have an email. Not just ANY email, however. THE email. The one I’ve been hoping and waiting for. The one that may contain good news. Or not. Either way, the not knowing, and the endless waiting, are causing a bit of this

Which shouldn’t really affect my productivity, right? Except that it becomes a bit of an obsession. It’s psychological, I realize that. Part of my life is stalled. Though it doesn’t really impact anything at the moment, it MIGHT impact the future, and ‘might’ is a mighty word, is it not?

In any case, I have been writing, though I haven’t been good about my ROW80 updates. I was gone for a week, then catching up, then just not feeling motivated to blog… blah, blah, blah. Yeah. Like that.

Looking back at my ROW80 goals post, I listed:

  1. Make serious headway on Pawn of Shadows (from hereon known as PoS), the second Coinblade Chronicles book.  UPDATE: I’m up to around 40k+, but having serious wallowing issues because I need to work out exactly where it’s going. Pantsing is failing me here.
  2. Finalize trailer for BiS, and formulate marketing plan, etc. in the event the traditional route does not pan out.  UPDATE: All that waiting blather above? Dumps right here. Though I have nearly completed another scene in the trailer and it is coming close to being finished. 
  3. Finish at least one more short story, either in the Coinblade Chronicles world, or grimdark. I say ‘one more’ because I currently have a short in the hands of several savvy Betas. I’m not completely sure what I intend it for. It’s very possible it will be made available ONLY to newsletter subscribers. See link over there <——— UPDATE: Betas have given me some wonderful feedback and I’m on final read-through and then first round of edits for Hand of Fate. I have a few ideas for some more shorts, but haven’t been able to carve out the time, or dedicate the brain space to further develop them, due to all of the above.

So, there you have it. Hopefully, if you’re waiting on something, you’re more patient and tolerant than I am.

Now, go exercise your imagination, get lost in a book, create something wonderful, or delight in something someone else has created.


  1. I have very little patience but I will certainly lend you some. Hoping it will pay off. 🙂

    • On the one hand, the wait has been beneficial. On the other… *scoops up armload of Fallon’s patience** Thanks. I’ll send it back when I’m done with it.

  2. Love your gifs.

    Bummer on one stally thing causing generalized stalliness. I know the feeling extremely well. If you send the monkeys over, I’ll send them back with some chocolate and motivation juice.

    • That darn It’s an obsession.

      The monkeys are on the way. Hopefully they don’t get lost.

      • Okie dokie! I’ll leave the chocolate and motivation juice on the roof for them to pick up, and a few bananas for the trip home. I’d invite them in, but… you know… monkeys.

        • Oh, yeah! Monkeys. *shakes head* But, as minions go, they are pretty handy.

          • Dangit, Kathi!!! *screwing power sprayer onto hose* They may be handy minions, but couldn’t you get something with a little sense of a hygiene? Now I gotta hose down my roof!

            • Ah…umm, sorry about that. They weren’t flinging it, too, were they? I’ve tried to make them understand how unacceptable that is.

              • Not this time. Next time they come, though, if they still haven’t learned any self-control, kindly tell them to use the rooftop three houses down. The guy who lives there thinks it’s okay to bully children, so if your monkeys MUST poop and fling, that’s the place to do it.

                Anyway, did the motivation juice do any good?

  3. A lot of my patience is being offered to a not-at-all-patiently-waiting-to-be-a-kitten-mommy not quite 12 year old. But I can send smiles and some deep breaths. And hugs. Will that help?

  4. Waiting sucks. I have this thing… if I have to wait for more than a week for something, I’m all too likely to change my plans and just not want it anymore. It’s easier to risk losing out on the fun or good news than to wait that little bit longer.

    My husband laughs when I do this ALL the time.

    So… while I wish I could offer you some comfort in your waiting, I’m probably not the best person to ask. :-/

  5. Waiting is awful. I try to keep busy, but I despise uncertainty. I’d rather a quick no that a long thought out no. Here’s hoping you hear soon. If you’ve been waiting since October, maybe follow up to make sure something didn’t get lost or sent to the wrong place?

    • I plan on querying them as to status in the beginning of May. That would be two months after the last indication that they were still reviewing it. I guess it’s a good thing, but I’m with you. If, after all of this, it’s a ‘no’… well, not much I can do about that. On the bright side, the waiting has given me time to work on some related projects that should help with marketing.

  6. I am not patient in the least. I used to go nuts over query response wait times. My method is to have multiple things going on and trick myself into feeling momentum even if I’m waiting on something. Sometimes it’s all about the distraction. Of course, I know deep down I’m still waiting, but it eases the obsession factor for me. 🙂 Hugs!

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